Tuesday, November 15, 2011

"We are always getting ready to live but never living"- Ralph Waldo Emerson

First semester is winding down and it is very hard to come to the realization that I am a soon to be St. Michael's graduate... if all works out. I hate thinking about it but at the same time it is sinking in more and more each day as my senioritis becomes more and more apparent.
I am currently sitting in the library, reading and critiquing the school newspaper, The Defender while I am supposed to be studying for my chemistry exam (lab science requirement...obviously waited until my senior year). Obviously, I am trying to multitask on Facebook while reading a newspaper... unnecessary. It is so interesting to see how people from my hometown in Massachusetts are doing after high school. Some are in college, some are married, some have children and some have gone off the deep end but will hopefully get on the right track in time. As much as people say things are not going to change at home while you're away, I can't help but disagree. We all grow up significantly from ages 18 to 22. In college, we are explosed to problems and people from all different backgrounds that change the way we view the world. At home or anywhere for that matter, young women are starting families at the ripe age of 18 and caring for a child of their very own. I give a lot of credit to those women.
I feel like people my age are in rush to start a life and this isn't only the case at home. Though, the unexpected, such as a pregnancy, can also be the best thing that ever happened to a person. I'm just not there yet. At school, there is constant worry amongst seniors about getting hired for a job after school. I know I should be thinking about my future and I am but I'm still exploring while I can and not developing a plan. Plans change and in my case, quite often. I have had two internships and plan on doing a third one next semester. Learning about different workplaces has been a great way to figure out what I want and don't want to do in the future. My dad called me the other day and said, "You want to find a job that doesn't make you feel like you are working, but enjoying what you are doing and you have time". My dad has struggled with finding a job since he was laid off in 2008 after working 15 years at the same company. I have never seen anyone work as hard as my dad has. He studies for hours, relearning information about networking, servers and firewalls so that he can find a job that best fits what he is interested in and confident that he can do. After multiple let-downs and some temporary positions, my dad continues to search for stable enployment three years later and continues to stay positive above everything. He is a firm believer in the idea that everything works out overtime, as am I. Despite obstacles, he has been able to overcome struggles and keep pushing himself to become a more experienced candidate for the jobs he is looking for. My family reminds ourselves all the time that this will pass, things will work out and that we are fortunate to have what we have earned and what has been given to us. Things could be worse and are for many people. Things could be much worse.
So, as second semester inches closer, I feel slightly at ease with my situation and know what I need to work on. I am a broke college student, thousands of dollars in debt...but living in the prime time of my life. Debt can be paid overtime and student loans can be deferred (for a little while at least). Babies can wait until my thirties and marriage, well we'll see. I am only focusing on one thing as a time because that is all I need to do right now. I wouldn't take back my college experience for anything. It has really been the best three and a half years of my life and things will hopefully only get better from her... and maybe a bit more serious. I don't know if I should refer to this time as "the prime of my life" but I am in my twenties and this time should be cherished, so yeah, I stick by my first statement. The economy is crumbling and the political structure in our country is going haywire but I'm alive, recieving a college education, happy and especially thankful for what I have been able to do, people I have been able to meet and experiences I have been able to have. I cannot get caught up and distracted by other's ideas and opinions about the future of my generation.
Clearly, I don't have "a plan". I have never really had "a plan" for my life. I haven't been dreaming about my wedding since I was twelve or anxiously waiting for the chance to experience motherhood. Everyone is different. I don't want to lay out a life for myself that could change in the blink of an eye. My mind is always changing and spontaneity is so thrilling. I just want to dive into any possible opportunity in front of me and see what happens, that could be a job, the chance to travel to a developing country or living in Burlington, Vt for the summer after college. You never how you are going to feel about something unless you try it, come on now. It's easy to say but to actually make it happen is a different story. If I can support myself financially, manage my money and have a roof over my head, I can figure things out from there. I strongly believe that. Managing my money responsibly is definitely something I need to work on but I am aware of that...

So, I do have a lot of be thankful for this Thanksgiving and I will keep reminding myself that things will work out even if I have my doubts.

I created two films for my digital film class at St. Mikes. Check them out.
This one is about four friends of mine and their love for extreme mountain biking. We were required to capture the passion behind a hobby or collection. This computer isn't letting me insert a hyperlink so copy and paste the link if you'd like to watch.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJa2IU_xidk

This is the first film I created for my digital film class. We were only able to use still photos and had to capture the true essense of a person or place. I chose to create a film about a lifesize painting my friend, Chris was working on for his senior seminar project and making it come to life with the help of my friend, Jeff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=HqcFtRQd0gQ

Thanks for reading.

:)

Thursday, October 20, 2011

"I'm pretty sure those people are Americans."

Last week, I traveled to New Hampshire with the Student Global AIDS Campaign (SGAC) to birddog the Republican candidates of the 2012 presidential election before the Republican debate at Dartmouth. We kept asking the same question (Will you commit to putting 6 million people on AIDS life saving medication by 2013?) We wanted to get AIDS in their head and the fact that there is life saving medication out there to help people with the disease and it is obainable. Believe me, I know the economy in America is struggling and that in order to help other countries we must first focusing on transforming ours. Although, foreign aid only makes up .5 of 1% of the government budget, why cut it? It is such a little amount that truely affects those that we give it to or at least we hope that is helping those in need but with so many corrupt polititians out there it is hard to really know where the money is going. The Republicans love to hate on foreign aid when it is actually a TINY portion of the budget and because these polititians come across this way, most Americans jump on the bandwagon. Most people would rather pay more taxes under Herman Cains 9-9-9 plan? I read that the same plan is used in SimCity 4, just saying... read about it.
According to CNN, less than 1% of government spending goes to foreign aid (like I mentioned before), according to the U.S. Agency for International Development. That's chump change compared to other sections of the bloated federal budget -- like spending on entitlement programs or the military.

Jon Stewart hit the nail on the head on his last episode of the Daily Show. He said, "It must be tough for Republicans to love America so much, but hate three-quarters of the people living in it." How can one be the President of the United States when they are so consumed in corporate greed and bashing Occupy Wall St. protesters but want "people to come out to the streets and fight for their country" or people to come to Washington D.C. "by the car load". Ok, Michelle Bachman. The candidates stress that the U.S. need to come together at a time when our country is divided yet they continue to bash people of their own country fighting for their rights. Rep. Steve King said the enemies are liberals and progressives because those are the people we are up against? Who's we? As Jon Stewart said, "I'm pretty sure those people are Americans." It's insane. These Republican candidates are hypocrites so consumed in gun rights and large corporations. Don't get me wrong, I believe that the Republicans do have solid points on how to improve this country but if they can't learn to understand the views of others then how are we supposed to continue on the road to improving this country and coming together as a nation?

I have enjoyed school funded trips with SGAC and the Dear Hillary Campaign because I always learn something and the people involved are great. Always a good time for sure. On the trip last week, we got to birddog Huntsman and Romney at each of their events. I learned a lot about politics while on this trip. My friends on the trip who study political science were always there to fill me in. We went with Professor David Mindich's Media and Politics classes. There were about 60 students (freshmen-seniors) from three different classes so I met a lot of new people. We were able to protest at Dartmouth before we attended the watch party in their gym. Huntsman, Bachman, and Gingrich stopped by the gym after the debate. We had birddogged Huntsman in Tilton, NH on the Monday before the debate and he told us he would look into AIDS funding and work on learning more about the issue. He even mentioned us in his short speech in the Dartmouth gym after the debate. It was a huge step for us as a campaign. Thank you Huntsman.

I'm late for class :-/

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Fall back...

Flaming lips- Do You Realize?


Can I just say I'm obsessed with fall. Everything about it is awesome... the clothes, food, weather and uh life in general? I'm feelin good. It's been quite a while since my last update, the usual. I am working on updating more often so my posts aren't too packed with information that may or may not be of any interest to anyone but myself but here if goes...

My internship at the Senate President of Massachusetts' office in the Massachusetts State House definitely made this summer a memorable one. I worked for the first woman Senate President of MA, Therese Murray. I met her a few times throughout the summer (May 16-Aug 4) and it was intimidating at first but I became more comfortable each time I came in contact with her. I worked closely with Laura Schroeder, the Deputy Director of Communications in the Senate President's office. She taught me so much about politics, journalism and life in general. She shared her experience in the communications field with me and it has helped me get on the right track as graduation creeps closer and full-time work and a salary becomes a reality... even though I'm in denial that I will live anywhere else but my adorable townhouse on St. Michael's campus... I'm working on that. Don't let me get too off track... my internship was so fulfilling. I wrote press releases and speaking points for the Senate President, updated her social media and even designed the header of her online newsletter! I was so happy that Laura decided to use it. I loved working with Photoshop and even learned how to use tools I'd never used before by watching online tutorials. Here is the banner I created-



I attended a couple of press conferences that Deval Patrick spoke at. The first one I attended mostly covered the Secure Communities Act that Governor of Massachusetts, Deval Patrick, rejected because about a quarter of those deported under the program nationwide are never convicted of a crime. Immigration advocates say it is due to racial profiling and police overstepping their duties to enforce immigration, according to the Huffington Post. Patrick believes that illegal immigrants who commit serious crimes should be deported but the act does not reflect those objectives. I was able to get behind Patrick when he was speaking of the press conference to take notes, which put me in clear view of all the cameras from different news stations. So, inevitably I ended up on the local news. Good thing I wore something nice that day :)
The other press conference I attended was on my last day, August 4th, when the Governor Patrick announced the new secretary of transportation for the MBTA (Massachusetts Bay Transport Authority). General Manager Richard Davey will be replacing Jeffrey Mullen who is choosing to return to the private sector. It was breaking news for the organization so press was all over it. I stood to the right of the stage and photographers swarmed the area, I could barely move but I was enjoying the media frenzy. My last day went smoothly and Laura even asked me to grab dinner at the end of the day. We went to a place on Beacon Hill and I got a Thai Chicken plate with some wine. I declined my second glass at first when the waitress asked but Laura went ahead and ordered another two glasses for us so I felt a lot more comfortable. Conversation was great and it was nice to open up and get to know her a little more outside the office.

I spent the next two weeks before school laying on the beach during the day and hostessing at Alden Park at night two to three times a week. It was nice to spend hours at the beach. I would even go by myself just to get out of the house and relax. I'd park at my cousin's house while she was at work and bring my lawn chair and bag down the road to the beach. I'd just lay back in my chair and listen to Fleet Foxes Helplessness Blues album on my IPod on repeat. My cousins went with me a few times too. They are twelve and fourteen so conversation was entertaining, to say the least. My cousin, Stephanie is a freshman in high school and I can't believe it. She made the JV Cheerleading Squad and is a flyer. I wanted to be a flyer so bad when I cheered when I was 12 but my body decided to grow way too much and I settled for a base. And I haven't grown since...

Hold up... so I found out I have Celiac's Disease when I went to my doctor before returning to Vermont. Let me sum it up for you. Celiac disease is a digestive disease that damages the small intestine and interferes with absorption of nutrients from food. People who have celiac disease cannot tolerate gluten, a protein in wheat, rye, and barley. When people with celiac disease eat foods or use products containing gluten, their immune system responds by damaging or destroying villi—the tiny, fingerlike protrusions lining the small intestine. Villi normally allow nutrients from food to be absorbed through the walls of the small intestine into the bloodstream. Without healthy villi, a person becomes malnourished, no matter how much food one eats. Celiac disease is both a disease of malabsorption—meaning nutrients are not absorbed properly—and an abnormal immune reaction to gluten. Celiac disease is also known as celiac sprue, nontropical sprue, and gluten-sensitive enteropathy. Celiac disease is genetic, meaning it runs in families. Sometimes the disease is triggered—or becomes active for the first time—after surgery, pregnancy, childbirth, viral infection, or severe emotional stress. Thank you National Digestive Diseases Information Clearinghouse for the info. So, basically I have to watch what I eat now pretty closely. It is pretty hard to resist the cakes, cookies, breads and beer but I'd say I'm doing pretty well except for last week but I was traveling so I had to take what I could get. I'm still learning about what I can and cannot eat but I'm finding that a lot more restaurants are offering gluten free menus, especially in and around Burlington. Last weekend I was home in Massachusetts for a few days and got breakfast at the Cornerstone Cafe on Plymouth waterfront with a couple girlfriends because they have great gluten free options. I ended up ordering gluten-free chocolate chip pancakes and it has been a while since I've had those. The only weird thing except for the fact that I have to look at the nutrition facts more is that this is something I'm going to have to be cautious for the rest of my life. I'm just starting to realize that I'm getting older as graduation creeps wayyy too close for comfort. Uh, clearly not ready. Ok, well I know it's only October but I can't go to any more family parties without being asked "So what are you looking to do after school?" I know, common question to ask a senior in college. I'd do the same, if it wasn't me... It freaks me out, especially since I have to choose my classes for my last semester of college like next week and that... totally interfers with my halloween weekend costume planning. Not cool. But seriously, it's exciting and all, it really is. I'd love to have one more year at this place living with some of the most interesting, hilarious, absurd, awkward, bitchy, adorable, cynical, compassionate, naive, loving, insane people I know. Not ready to give that up just yet.

My cousin, Michael is leaving for Army boot camp next Monday. He is going to do so well. I'm happy for him for making the commitment. It's scary to think about because he's family and he's also younger than me. But... he is one tough guy and he's been working his butt off for boot camp. I'll be calling him this week to say bye and good luck.

I am really into my Digital Film class this semester. Currently, I am working on a film that should capture one's "passion for something". I decided to film a few of my friends mountain biking because they have been going together for a couple years now and really love the sport. Around 6, I'm going to film a couple interviews so I should probably start thinking of questions to ask.

I leave you with this...

You are so young, you have not even begun, and I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything that is unsolved in your heart and to try to cherish the questions themselves, like closed rooms and like books written in a very strange tongue. Do not search now for the answers which cannot be given you because you could not live them. It is a matter of living everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, one distant day live right into the answer.”
-R. M. Rilke (Bohemian-Austrian poet)

Peace

Thursday, August 4, 2011

nostalgia ...

As summer winds down and my senior year inches closer and closer I can't help but focus on the "now", the present, what is right in front of my eyes. I'm always looking forward to the next thing, everyone does, but sometimes you have to stop, refocus, and be grateful for what you have at this moment in this crazy fast pace world we live in.

It is hard to explain the way I feel during the summer. It's a mixture of certain things that bring the same feeling back each year; the smell of campfire in your hair, the taste of salt on your lips after a dip in the ocean, the cool beach breeze flowing through your hair as night falls and the sun begins to set, the sweet tang of lemonade savoring your sweet tooth, a beautiful short summer dress free-flowing in the warm air, gold hair in the sunlight falling softly on your back, sand between your toes, barefeet out the car window, the clean, crisp aroma of freshly cut grass, the smooth sound of an acoustic guitar, vibrant colors cascading across the landscape, young innocent dancing hearts...and so much more.

Summer is a time for firsts; to explore yourself and relax your mind. You could be experiencing a new music scene or a new friendship. Days go on forever and when the sun sets, the air cools and music fills the air. Those first soft opening notes of a familiar song ignites a passion inside of you. That strange, beautiful sensation you know as nostalgia creeps up on you slowly and silently and you become fully immersed in a memory that gently lifts your heart. Each summer is another chapter in the everchanging novel we call life. It's a kaleidoscope of events that shape us along the way on this continuous journey.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Bruins, Dispatch, and a little bit of city life

So this summer has been going by pretty quickly. I've already been at my internship for over a month and I'm loving it... besides the whole not getting paid for my labor thing.
A lot has happened since my last update! The Bruins won the Stanley Cup so Boston has been a little nuts and I'm right in the middle of it at the State House. I went out to a bar in Fanueil Hall for Game 7 and it was insanity. After the Bruins won, people flooded out of the bars into the streets. My friends and I were in the middle of all the excitement in front of the Garden. People made their own versions of the Stanley Cup with tin foil and stood on top of the North Station train entrance cheering. My friend and I got hoisted up and people on top pulled our arms up so we could stand. It was exhilerating being able to see all the Bruins fans in the streets high fiving and screaming. People started to rock cars so I thought it might be a good idea to get down at that point... We made out way back to the North End, which is where my friends Tanya and Matt live and ended the night with a stop at South Street Diner. It was a great time!
The parade was Saturday and my friends and I had to get to the train station by 9 if we wanted any chance of seeing the parade. We arrived at Park St. T stop an hour before the parade came through. It was a beautiful day but a little hot especially since most people were wearing black shirts. Haha. I couldn't even get a signal on my phone because of the amount of people that were in the city that day so of course I got lost after the parade... Since I've been working in the city, I've been learning my way around so I was able to find my cousin Mike and my friends at Fanuiel Hall. We spent the rest of the day at the Purple Shamrock and I met up with my future roommate, Rachel, and her friends from home. She ended up coming back to Pembroke with me where I had a little get together. It was great to see her.
Last Friday, I went to Dispatch at the Garden. I got a ticket last minute and I've never been to a Dispatch show so I was pysched. They played some songs I knew and even played a little bit of Mrs. Robinson during the last set :) The rest of the night was a little hectic. I stopped by my friend's girlfriend's apartment in Roxbury and hung out with some friends for a few hours. The apartment was huge, I loved it. I can't wait to have my own.
Hoping for good weather this weekend...

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Where is the sunshine?

So school has ended and I received all B's in my classes! Works for me. It was a tough semester. Now I just have to get my GPA up to a 3.0... uh.

Rachel is home from Denmark and reuniting with her was the best! We met up in Boston after I got out of my internship and embraced each other in the middle of Fanuiel Hall. I'm so happy she's home. We went to UNH last weekend (don't know anyone there) but had such a great time at grad parties. We caught up and she gave me a shirt with LOVE in Danish printed on the front. She also put pins from all the countries she went to on the bottom of the shirt, I loved it :). Kendra and Catherine are also home from Italy and Denmark! I haven't seen them yet and would like to before Kendra starts her internship in London.

Oh yes, the internship I'm doing... I am working as a press intern for Senate President Therese Murray at the State House in Boston. I love working there. Not only am I falling in love with the city but I am also enjoying the work I have been doing for the communications staff. I started last Monday and so far I have written a press release, speaking points, and a quote for the Senate President. I met her on Monday! It was great, she was very nice. I am working with six other interns from Massachusetts who are in college as well. We all have to wear business formal attire in the office. I'm loving all the new dresses and heels I've been wearing, which is a plus ;)

I have been a hot mess lately. My car brakes needed to be replaced, which was a pain. I also just started unpacking from school because my parents are going to kill me if I don't clean all of my bags and clothes out of the "living room" or the room with furniture we don't sit on. I am also on a serious search for a job and haven't had much luck but I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a call back within the next week or so. I'm trying to get a job bartending or waitressing and it has been difficult because a lot of places don't want to just hire someone for the summer. It's frustrating.
Last night I went to the Venus, a bar near my house, with some friends to watch the Bruins vs. Tampa Bay. The Bruins won and it was a great game. I find myself only getting into sports when it becomes a social activity. But that's ok. The TV at our table was 5 seconds faster than the bar TVs so when the Bruins scored we would cheer and the bar would be silent until 5 seconds later. It was humorous.

I should get back to cleaning. Tomorrow is supposed to be sunny. THANK GOD. The rain is so depressing... and bad for my hair.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Throwbacks

It feels like the semester flew by because some of my best friends will be returning from their euro trips/study abroad trips so so so soon. I cannot wait to see everyone. I miss them so much I'm going to post some old pictures :)



Oh Rachie. This is the first day of freshman year. We have come a long way. Rach is in Copenhagen, Denmark right now being a diva journalist and traveling Europe. Can't wait to reunite in 3 weeks.



This was a great day. Warm weather, a light flannel and my camera are a wonderful combination.



Catherine (right) is in Denmark with Rachel and they are currently in Ireland at Catherine's relative's house. Kendra is "studying" in Rome, Italy and drinking as much wine as her little heart desires. She is also interning in London this summer. Very jeal of this lifestyle. They will be living next to Rach, Meg, Meg, and I next semester.



Resting after a serious dock war at Chelsea's lake house in VT. Bring me back meow.



Sophomore year, can't get enough of it. I love these ladies.



Hahaha. I can't get enough of these boys.


Ah 4 days until it starts all over again :)